Unknown

I read an article today about Jean Seberg, the actress in one of my favorite movies, "Breathless".  The writer said she was "unknown and unknowable".  Well, that phrase really nails how I am feeling about myself.  I am unknown because I don't think anyone really has any idea of who I am (including myself) and unknowable - not in a mysterious way, but because I put up so many barriers to anyone having even a shot at knowing me.

Before I get too deep in this crap I need to see what a joke this line of thinking is.  I mean, why do I have this need to be known as someone unique, special?  Me with all these supposedly hidden talents, such meaningful thoughts that the world cannot benefit from, such an amazing person unknown and unknowable Its such a shame that the world is oblivious to my wonderfulness?  God!! I can't believe I was going down this path.

Who cares?  What difference does it make?  Why am I feeding my ego with these thoughts of separation. Poor me, nobody knows me. How funny it seems now that I look at it.  Give it up. I think I have a lot of work to do.  I think this is the work I was born to do. 

Lesson 196 - It can be but myself I crucify.